MY COLUMN THIS WEEK IS ABOUT ME & LOVE & DIVORCE, DEVASTATION, LONELINESS, PAIN & THEN TRUE LOVE!

Her February Loneliness

Feeling more alone in her room as she watches another commercial, How sweet these couples are advertising items supposedly special For the one you love to celebrate with on another Valentine’s Day. Who really needs all the chocolate or a huge, expensive bouquet? Her memories flash back to the previous year when she was happy, And married to the one who was going to love her forever, so faithfully; She thought her life was like a dream, she is now becoming very sad. Missing what her life once was, realizing how she misses all that she had, Knowing what she lost is now forever gone, she must move forward; Thinking about her broken feelings, all she can think about is feeling adored. She goes online to create profile, hoping she will meet a friend on the site, Becoming surprised by the responses, she begins to talk to a man that night. Amazed at how easily the two of them talked, understanding each other’s pain, Days going by, they continue talking to another feeling they have much to gain. After a week of talking, the two decided they had to meet each other in person, Spending time together, dining out, watching movies, they were having much fun. Soon, the two have become seriously involved with one another, she falls deep. He is now invading her life, controlling decisions, her every move, even her sleep; Nothing she says can make him understand that who he is becoming is very wrong. She explains this is not the way a person lives their life, while

What It Feels Like To Be Katrina Taylor!

I grew up in a small Mississippi town where I live today with family. I never liked small towns, but today I feel like it’s finally home. I once dreamed of a big city being my home, living in a nice house, and having a successful profession. I achieved most of my goals only to have it taken away from me. I’ve lost a lot and I’ve gained even more than I could ever imagine. I now know what’s important in life and it’s not what I once dreamed about.
2006 was the year that would change my life, send me home, and teach me a life lesson that I would never forget. August 1, 2006 is the exact date that I was told that I have multiple sclerosis. I was living what I thought was the perfect life with my husband and two sons in a gated community in Phoenix, AZ working for Banner Health as a registered nurse and attending school full-time for a bachelor’s degree in nursing.

Soon, I was no longer able to work and we had to move back to Mississippi to live with family for about nine months. It was difficult and I was losing myself quickly. A few months later in early 2007, I had a nervous breakdown. I didn’t want to live life anymore; I didn’t know how to deal with all that had happened to me. I received treatment and soon found the strength to cope as much as I could and returned to work as a registered nurse. After only nine months, I had to stop working because of my multiple sclerosis.

February 2009, I was back home living with Mother, divorced, and had custody of only one of my two sons. It was a very difficult time for me and very heartbreaking. I wasn’t really sure what to do with my life; I did not know who I was anymore. As the year went on, so did my depression but with a little help from my friends with multiple sclerosis I learned to finally accept having multiple sclerosis and see the good in life.

After struggles, I see how beautiful life can be. I’m amazed at happy I am even with living with chronic pain and chronic illness. Every day isn’t easy, but with love and support, I am enjoying my life for the first time in a very long time. I want you all to know that I’ve been as low as low can be, but I have climbed to a beautiful place in my life and I could not be happier if I tried to be. Make this life yours and fight multiple sclerosis with seeing the brighter side, because I promise you, there is always a brighter side. Always!

Remember, if life was easy it would be boring. Remember that those rough days do not last forever!

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